Hot!Hot Hot!

Everything didnt go on smoothly today.Life is like ferris wheel,up and down,the best thing to describe my mood right now.I was so happy yesterday as it was a Christmas.But it didnt last longer.I was totally in a terrible mood today!!!Owh...!!!Feels like want to bite somebody to vent out my anger!O'Lord...Please help me!Please give me piece of mind!Please let me calm down!Please,please.please!

10-10-10 (Sun)

The best Sunday I ever had.Guess what?I went to church with Suk Qing.It's like live concert.We're so excited and hot.We sang the worship song with burning heart and I definitely enjoy the singing section to the fullest.There,I released my stress.I talked to the Jesus and I know He hears me.People there was so warm and friendly.They blessed those who needs blessing with sincere heart.We had our Holy Communion too.And I was so lucky today,I had the opportunity to appreciate the songs which sang by the singing leader(also a guitarist) who's going to leave to Kampar. He brought us to the highest.That was the most touched moment.Everyone was so reluctant to let him goes.Anyway,may God continues his blessing upon him and his family.
One more week is gone.My exam is fall on next Wednesday.I'm so scared.OMG...O'Lord,please strengthen me,give me courage and confidence.I trust in You.In Jesus name I pray,Amen.

Fear...

Mum called me just now.The feeling of fear comes into my mind.Why am I so afraid?Never have this super duper lousy feeling before.I fear my dad will scold me again.Seriously hates this kind of feeling.He is my dad.I shouldn't have this feeling.hmmm...I can't help myself for having this feeling(innocent look).I'm SO scared we talked for too long and keep answering my mum question with emm...emm...emm...dare not to talk too much.I felt relieved when my mum told me he slept ored!I was like fuh......
Actually I missed two calls from mum just now as I went to take bath.I saw my dad's number appeared on my phone.I was so happy and contains a bit of...nervous?So I called back.Guess I heard whose voice?It's my mum.A bit sad.I expected my dad to answer the phone.It's ok it's alright.I'm the one who used to cuddle with my dad,but now I feel awkward.Keep querying myself why???!

Nightmares Queen...

I thought everything will be fine after my statement of entry stuff had been settled.But I still keep making nightmares.It's sorta horrifying and terrible nightmares.Even taking nap also will make nightmare.What's your feeling when you seeing someone digging somebody eyes out and keep bleeding?ewww...gross...Damn it!Is it because I'm too stressed?...maybe...Guess I might do the closing ceremony of nightmares only after exam.sigh...What a stress life!Is it God wants me to become stronger and tougher by giving me such hard task?Totally exhausted...Only God knows my pain.O'Lord,please strengthen me and guide me through this.In Jesus name I pray,Amen.

Pasar malam...

Pasar malam!!!Went to pasar malam with Kam Leng and Suk Qing.It's kinda fun.I bought a short pants.Luckily it fits me...fuh...I was told by Suk Qing,Kam Leng almost broke.Lolx...As a kind person,I advised her to eat porridge from now onwards.It's like kill two birds with one stone(save money and keep fit)...hahahaha...She really bought a lot,clothes and accessories until forgot to eat.Alamak!!!At last,we ended up with da bao fried rice with sambal.Not bad.I need to redo my account.I didn't expect I'll buy that short pants.I managed to buy some food for my cousin as a breakfast tomorrow.Hope they like it.^^

Just to.........

Have a nice conversation with mum just now.But it was cut off by dad.We talked a lot.It took us about...um...half an hour maybe...?He asked mum is it no need credit to talk?How sad!On that moment,I began to cry!I keep thinking,is he hates me?Since when I have that feeling?I have no idea.Maybe after my A Levels result was out.Man is realistic.Even our family is not excluded.Being asking myself for so many times,you love me because I got good result in my primary school and lower secondary school?I told Nikki about this.She said I think too much!The answer is MAYBE!There is no affirmation.Yes,I failed my maths and econs.But I passed my law.But it isn't enough for me to get into uni.I need 2 passes!I hate maths!Seriously!I can't help myself from stop crying.Maybe it's the way for me to relieve myself.Crying is not a crime!
You have not been calling me for so long.Since I came out to KL,it's just three to four times.
I think I'll feel awkward when we meet.Gosh...!!!I hate that feeling!Shouldnt be like this!If you didnt insist me to study law,will it become like this?I love you so much!But you really hurt me.It's pain!Im crying alone in the room.You wont know I nearly killed myself before the final exam.I continued my life because of you!I studied law because of you!I keep persuaded myself you forced me because of my own good!Only mum knows me.She gives me support she cares about me she worried about me.But you did not!You said something bad behind me!You did not believe me!Anyway,you're my dad.It's reality.I expect something good from you.I hope you really love me just because I'm your daughter.I love you Dad!I'll always keep you in my prayer.

送给你的歌...

<因为.所以>
是你给我那美丽的梦,
叫我如何去忘记,  
浪漫的情景满满的爱,
让我彻底的沉溺在你怀里~
*** 因为爱了所以不想放弃,
因为相信所以一直等待,
因为你所以我活得更有意义,
恳求你让我一直爱下去,
让我好好珍惜你~~
那是我们美丽的爱情,
那么纯净那么单纯,  
写完这篇我觉得~
我更爱你了~~~


作者:卢晓君

It's time to get rid of my stress...

Hey...it's Friday!!!Two more papers to go.It's kinda hard especially law paper.My Contracts law was dying.Well,Im not really well-prepared for this time trial exam.A bit regret and sad.It's ok it's alright.Im going to work hard for my final exam.Is it?HAHA...KC going to leave tonight.So sad!!!We had been stayed together for at least 3 months.But how to do?This is a hard decision for her too.Oh...We threw out a party for her.It's a bit special because it's a birthday party+farewell party.LOL...(and tell u guys a secret,,,her real birthday is on Sep)LOL again..gonna miss her.I will!There's a lot of sweet memory between us.She likes my cooking.haha...I know that.She said everytime she came out from her room she will smell my cooking and feel like wanna straight away swallow all my cookings.Like a hungry monster!!!We ate pizza together...went to BBQ Plaza together.Wow...Could hardly believe that she's going to leave us.I hope she'll learn a lesson from that terrible DISASTER!Be careful KC...Disaster will happen anytime.Take care and Bon Voyage!Do miss us...

她的爱情故事

他跟她曾经同校过。他们是在运动会时候认识的。起初她对他的印象不是很好觉得男孩很花心。女孩会有这样的想法也是因为他在运动会的时候看上了一个女生。可是他追不到她。在运动会时男孩跟女孩讨了电话号码女孩也给了因为男孩说运动会溜出去玩的时候可以联络。运动会过后他们很常联络。后来不知道什么时候也不知道什么原因他就开始追她。每天放学他都会在校门等女孩想跟他一起走回家。每次他到家他都会跟女孩说慢走。女孩觉得很奇怪也很好笑。过不久他就跟她表白。她答应了！女孩早上去学校都会经过男孩的家。奇怪的是他们每天早上都会碰到。原来他都在窗口那里注意女孩。头头男孩的妈妈不允许他们交往。女孩很难过。可是为了他为了他们的爱她很努力。因男孩的爸爸已过世所以他们全家人都搬去另外一个地区。他们的距离越来越远。女孩很不高兴想放弃但男孩一直坚持。后来他们没分手还继续交往。男孩周末一有空就回来看女孩。他们见面的时间很少但他们很快乐。虽然在幸福当中有时闹得不愉快，但他们都熬了过来。终于男孩的妈妈不反对他们交往了。女孩很高兴。女孩一想到她已得到他家人的肯定她就会傻笑。当然她也知道她并不是最好的。他们分过很多次。到最后还是在一起。原因是女孩总是不相信男孩。女孩常常问男孩奇奇怪怪的问题。有一次她问他对她的爱是否有淡掉？男孩回答说，“没有，热情得很。”女孩觉得这个答案很好笑不过也很感人。每次想起就会傻笑。因为某些原因他们分了。男孩不喜欢悲伤可是悲伤总是围绕着他。而这些悲伤都是女孩带给他的。可是男孩从来没有怪过她还仍然那么爱她。到了现在他还是深深地爱着她。女孩很感动不知道要怎么报答他。矛盾。。。

2010 Valentine's Day

14/2/2010,celebrated Valentine's Day in Genting Highlands...lots of people selling roses...unexpected things happened...my dad bought a stalk of rose for my mum.What a wonderful moment!LOL...It's a fresh pink rose.Not bad.And of course my mum was happy with it.Haha...Roses,is a symbol of love,right?One is enough to show their love towards their beloved.So sweet and I'm not going to forget this enchanting moment.It made me so touched.

爱情

爱情，究竟是什么？两个人相亲相爱，彼此对对方许下诚诺？那就是爱情吗？下午看到我朋友在facebook上写她对他有多失望从此再也不会相信爱情。这样的想法是对的吗？为什么要为了一个不珍惜你的人而立刻判爱情死刑呢？为什么不要再给爱情一个机会，为什么不要再给自己机会再爱一回？他让你失望也许他不是你的Mr.Right。那么多的为什么就证明了爱情是有多复杂。如果对爱情没把握那就不要轻易开始那段感情。结束一段感情并不是世界末日。跌倒了就要从新站起来继续往更好的方向好好走下去。你只走到一半就喊累，谁知道下一站就是幸福呢？朋友啊。。。你要振作要勇敢面对这一切。人生有挫折才会活得有意义我们才会懂事才会长大。粱文音唱的‘哭过就好了’让我印象很深刻。感情离开了，哭也没有用了。真的是这样吗？听完后自己不断的想真的哭过就好了吗？到现在还做不到。或许是因为我是个重感情的人吧。。。也或许我没你们那么坚强。我了解你的心情，真的很了解。常常为他流泪可是他都不懂。有时真的很生气很想揍他一顿让他醒过来。当然这不是一个好办法。
既然他不挽回了那你真的该停止为他哭泣了。所以朋友，你要更坚强。要证明你没有他也能过得很好。伤心的眼泪不可能永远陪伴你度过一辈子。往好的方面想，想想周围的亲戚朋友，其实他们才是最重要的。不要让他们伤心，要对自己好一点。相信明天会更好。